The absolute audacity of my heart to find love on a dead planet
To search for meaning beneath an indifferent sky
To hunt for truth in deceitful hearts
Dare to feel deeply in this materialist existence
Seeking benevolence in this self-absorbed species
My inability to half-arse and pour all feelings in one jar
When I do not feel safe to be vulnerable in it
The naivety to invest in people more than they do in me
To feel so little in this powerful yet soulless, self-centred world
Am I looking for chaos in peace?
Or the world around me is just a mayhem
